Friday, January 04, 2008
I am impossible
So remember how this whole "happiness journal" thing (cooler name? anyone?) was supposed to make me better at living in the moment, rather than dwelling on plans and dreams for the future? Yeah, that hasn't worked out so well. Instead, I find myself trying to plan my happiest moment of the day. Well, not really plan it (that's kind of impossible), but rather play this totally consuming guessing game about what it's going to be.
For example, knowing that the Iowa caucuses were taking place last night has had me thinking for days, "If Barack Obama wins in Iowa, hearing that news on Friday morning is going to be the happiest moment of my day." (I'm only about a hundred pages into The Audacity of Hope, and not only have I already fallen completely, hopelessly in love with Barack Obama, but I've also become convinced that he's the next John F. Kennedy.) Anyway, given that hearing this very news on the radio this morning produced an actual squeal of excitement, I have to believe that it's going to be very hard for anything else to top it today.
To make matters worse, I've already started hoping for this exact same happy moment next Wednesday after the New Hampshire primary. Seriously, I need help here.
So remember how this whole "happiness journal" thing (cooler name? anyone?) was supposed to make me better at living in the moment, rather than dwelling on plans and dreams for the future? Yeah, that hasn't worked out so well. Instead, I find myself trying to plan my happiest moment of the day. Well, not really plan it (that's kind of impossible), but rather play this totally consuming guessing game about what it's going to be.
For example, knowing that the Iowa caucuses were taking place last night has had me thinking for days, "If Barack Obama wins in Iowa, hearing that news on Friday morning is going to be the happiest moment of my day." (I'm only about a hundred pages into The Audacity of Hope, and not only have I already fallen completely, hopelessly in love with Barack Obama, but I've also become convinced that he's the next John F. Kennedy.) Anyway, given that hearing this very news on the radio this morning produced an actual squeal of excitement, I have to believe that it's going to be very hard for anything else to top it today.
To make matters worse, I've already started hoping for this exact same happy moment next Wednesday after the New Hampshire primary. Seriously, I need help here.
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